Mama is in States

I still remember that my mom packs my snacks for school. She even initially made me convince that going to school will be as easy as playing toys. I remember she taught how to simply write my name few days before the start of my classes in kinder (yup I did not go to nursery, where it is now required). i may not have the best packed snacks but I always have my best toys with me during P.E. I was really sickly then so I can't really compete physically to my classmates so instead I have my toys brought to school by my tito. Yes, I had a guardian until I reached Grade 1. From those regular days, I always had expected my mom to give me something every time she had been to work. Yes, I really expected her and actually even from my dad. My brothers told me that I was their favorite and though as much I don't want to admit it to them, but to myself I know they were right but I have to defer since I have to protect myself from those intrigues or whenever my brothers and sister teased me for being such a spoiled kid. One event was really memorable, it was my birthday, I was turning 8 then, I was actually sick and I was confined in my room (my room is actually with my parents until I reached college). All I have asked her is big teddy bear, so huge that it was half of my size. Well she bought me that one, seemed easy? Well, every birthdays that I had, timely that there were strong storms and my mom doesn't have a car where she came from Manila and still had to be home in Bulacan. Actually there were really a lot of favors i have asked from my mom, sometimes I don't really have to ask for them, she has this sheer instinct of knowing things that I like though at times I was so really hesitant to them from her. Probably she know me so much as I stayed beside her in bed until I graduated from college. Funny to realize that among her children who have studied in Manila, it was only me whom she made it a point to actually live in Manila, not even to my sister. She really watched me grow and was even so scared for every choices I have been engaging in since college when I had actually realized that I have to be independent. It was actually hard for her, I know that and I was not even sensitive about it. maybe just this year, when I started talking to my mom and have been more open with her about the things I want to do. One weekend, when I visited her in our province and told her the reason why I seldom go there, I was able to confide some things which i believed made her realize that I am indeed a grown-up. I simply told her that I'm not getting any younger and I need a space for myself because I simply have to prepare myself emotionally, financially, psychologically and every aspect of my life that I simply have to establish myself more just like her and dad. As much as I wanted to keep them beside me always but I have to accept the fact that each member of my family has his/her own life that needs to be set free. from that day on, I was entrusted by mom to actually be in-charge now of myself. Well, I'm proud to say that she also did the same thing. She went to USA last July 5, I was the only person accompanying her up to the immigration. I felt partly sad but I know she'll be getting more exciting activities there than in here. The last time I talked to her, she was really so energetic and felt she was young again. Of course she misses us but she also has some relatives there to help her out too. Besides, I get to talk to her in daily basis. One thing I have her convinced, to do things she never did while she was taking care of us. She was indeed practical, now she plays casino with my tita very often. I know by time she can be more comfortable there. There are also less stress as she's one particular person who likes to think most of the times. She's a really good planner, evident to what we are now. I love my mom and this is why I am writing this, I want to tell the world that she's one best woman I can ever have in my life.